today, simply, BAD DAY. i dun want to say, is just i hurt my darling too deep. all my fault. i know i am selfish, i am irritating. nobody like me, only hate. idk, why am i like that maybe i am the elderest in the family, so i need ppl to respect, listen to me. but i know in the outside society i cannot like that. after talk with bi, i ok le. but i think he haven ba. i so fking gulity to hurt him, i am so sorry darling. worst! after came back home talk to bi, jealousy came. idk why i will feel that. maybe because of ytd incident ba.

bi, seems to know everthing from her it seems like she is the gf instead but i told myself like that only dun mean anything. but after thinking about ytd incident i dun feel the same anymore. ytd, she call bi only, bi go rush back and find her, in the end, it is just a joke. and bi take her call that time seems so gan chiong idk why, i like one stupid dog keep follow. i know i should not feel that way, cause that is his so call sister. i dun care le la, bi want close with wat girl i really dun want care le. but i will still keep to my promise to be faithful, i will not be close to other guys at all.